SETTLED!!!!!

phew....finally, everything settle..
I received police letter after the accident..at 1st i thought will gantung my license, or sama rm300 or..etc..but now, everything goes on smoothly. The car that i knocked is only one small scratch, also don't know why he go and report..sigh..but today my dad ask him to go to my uncle's shop to polish..everything is FOC..LOL..crazy fellow, make easy things complicated..nearly affect my license man..

but through this incident, i really learned a lesson and know how to trust God more..

"We also rejoice in our suffering, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character, and character, hope -Romans 5:3-4"

"Be patient in trouble, and always be prayerful. -Romans 12:12"

He really be with me all the time so that i can overcome all these..He's AWESOME!!!!

Anyway, I'm having driving test this coming thurday..i wanna pass!!!! i must pass!!!!!!!!!
and i'm going to Teluk Intan this coming friday, and will straight away go down to KL..hehe..can't wait man...yuhoo~~~~~~~~

Need Help...

The post below is taken from an email sent to me by a friend. This is no joke and I sincerely hope that every reader of this blog will offer his/her help one way or another. Thanks.

Dear Friends!
The girl you see is the two-year-old daughter of the physiotherapist Mr. Moe. He is working in the center for people with handicap, where Benedikt and I are volunteering.
The girl’s name is Pandora.
Mr. Moe is from Myanmar and works in Malaysia because here, he is able to earn a bit more money for his work.
Reason for that is that his daughter has Thalassaemia, what is a sickness of the blood. It means that less hemoglobin is produced and / or too much is being degraded.

For saving her life, a bone marrow transplant is absolutely necessary.
A surgery like that costs about RM300.000 to RM400.000 . This is a very high amount that no ordinary working man is able to pay. Mr. Moe will have to sell all his properties in Myanmar and even that will only be a small part of the financial effort.

Because of that, Benedikt and I have written to different organizations like
”MC Donald’s”, ”TDH”, “ ”Ein Herz Fuer Kinder”, “Myanmar Kinderhilfe DE” and many other. The only good response came from the German newspaper “BILD”, that is willing to give financial help as soon as one third of the whole cost for the surgery is arranged.

For donations in financial form, Benedikt and I have opened an account here in Malaysia. The account will be given to Mr. Moe as our voluntary work ends on august 17th 2009.

We are also looking forwards to information about organizations that we maybe have forgotten.

Name: Benedikt Bau & Alexander Maass
Accountnumber: 0918 – 0007239 – 525
SWIFT CODE: CIBBMYKL
Bank: CIMB Bank / Simpang Empat / Hutan Melintang / Malaysia

p/s: Sorry for not being able to post up a picture of the little girl said. For more information, please feel free to inquire me. Thanks!

23 march....

PAIN!!!PAIN!!!PAIN!!!!
I've different kinda painfulness in and out of different parts of my body!!!!!
First, my left hand wound..it's super duple extra pain today. it bleed and the whole thing is like reddish and swollen..OUCH!!! Some more got motor lesson.. @@
Then, my thigh!!!! don't know is cause by yesterday's accident or what, the moment i sat on the motor, i was like, Oh shit!!! PAIN!!! it just like the bone twisted inside..ISH!!!!

oh well, i met my ex-classmate in the driving center. She's one of my malay's best friend. And today is first day of school. One the way to the driving center, i saw some of the student, on the way to school, this let me reflect back of my secondary school life..



Seconday School...haha..had lots of memory...
erm...form 1, 1st day of school..it's still so clearly in my mind..
We like all "dai dai" and seriously, I don't know 1 of the student..not even 1..the reason why is, my sec school is actually a kampung school, you can see chicken running around..haha..kampung..and i was from a primary school that some sort people called "premier" school in town. You can see the differences now right?? And my sec school schoolmate is from a primary school that some way nearby my sec school, so is like all my schoolmate came from the same school, and i'm the only ET there..hahahaha..so, 1st day of school, is bored...no friend...well,since I'm a talkative person, no matter where i go, i sure don't have the problem to make friend with somebody..hehe..and so..bla bla bla..I thank God that I study in this school, because of my lousy UPSR result, I can't get into those "popular" school in muar, but I really appreciate this 5 years in Maharani..hehe..
Still remember......hw we ponteng during rentas desa..the weather is so hot, just can't stand those lebih lebih things. So we all whole gang of girl in my class, decided 2 PONTENG!!!hahaha..we actually go 2 the backdoor of the school(of coz the backdoor is locked) then the pagar was actually cacat, because we're not the only one that ponteng :p so we just step on the pagar and jump out..hahahah..but then that time my hand was injured, and the wound was half recovered, then my friend don't know how, accidentally touch my wound, then the whole thing come out,YAOUCH!!!!! my skin!!!!!! oh well, now got scar :p can you imagine how samseng we were..hehe
Then form 4, the year of separation??
We were all seperated, er...actually is i seperate with them, they're still in the same class..i'm the only one that study science class.. T.T
But our class is just like sebelah..really sebelah..haha..so, i'll just "visit" them during free period..Maybe God wants me to be patient? or be quiet? My class only got 2 chinese girls(included me)and 1 chinese boy..oh my..if that girl is talkative 1 i still can survive, but she's the COOLEST and COLDEST in the whole form..even teacher scare her..chill~~~~~ how could i live WITH you?????? the 1st year with her i was like...ok..you talk, i talk; you don't talk, i sleep..hehe..but second year, i really can't stand it..so, you talk, of coz i talk; you don't talk, then listen what i say..hahahahahaaahahah..

Anyway, i really appreciate sec school life, although i always kena bully(by teacher and friend T.T) But my school is so kampung, and the student are not that clever, my school don't even have straight A's student.BUT, I like it..
I like my school, because is out of town.
I like my school, because is very quiet, i mean the road, at least don't have HONK!!HONK!!HONK!!!
I like my school, because the teachers are our friend and sister.
I like my school, because friends are friends, they won't set you up. My bro's sch, which is damn long history and damn popular in town, really ah..his friend, super not good loh..my bro, pro, i mean his result very good, then his friend scare he'll win them, so they all like set him up..(more information,ask me,lazy 2 type so much :p )
I like my school, because we can break the rules.
I like my school, because i'm a bad student, but teachers still like me.(because they can used me 2 do things 4 them..haiz..but nvm.. :D)
I like my school, because that is my school :P

ANYWAY, I miss my school.. :D

a lesson 2 learn..

I met an accident today!!!!! SCARED!!! :S
This is my first time kena accident, really don't know how to handle it.

Well, before i met the accident, i actually saw vision..
I'm involved in worship team this morning, and before the worship start we'll like gather together and ask pray with the pastor. While he's praying, then i saw a street, which is the main street of muar, and I sure will pass by there everyday, then I saw a car knock me there..(chill) before i go 2 piano class. But after the prayer then we start the worship section, so i din't bother that much. I just think that maybe i think too much. I always like to think lebih lebih things.. :p

Then everything go on smoothly as usual..

After church sevice, I've piano class, so I drive my scooter there. I was so impatient to wait for the traffic light, so I used the other road. And before i reach another traffic light, there's 1 car on the right side, then another "coming out" car on the left side, I was in the center, I wanted to cut the right side car so that i can go to the corner.Then the "coming out" car came out, so I can't really break on time. So i scratch through the "coming out" car and knock the right side car. My scooter stuck in the center. It was really scary..

To me, really scare..the moment I knock the cars i was like..GOd,help me..I'm very scare...

So we stop our vehicle beside of the road, and i called my parents..The owner of the right side car is a malay, the "coming out" car is chinese..Then the malay keep on say i kena his bumper, wanna spray..bla bla bla..say like tat at least RM200..some more say if call police need another RM300.. what the hell is that?? the chinese,her somebody is a mechanic, then he say the bumper is just slightly scratch, no need to spray the whole bumper just need to polish..then the malay change topic, he say i knock his door..faint..he say if serious then can claim insurance, but now not serious, hard to do things..that moment, my mind was..in this case ah, then i knock again loh..then u can claim insurance :D

But my parents takes super long time to reach there..I cried when i saw them.. :p
While waiting i already cried once, then cry again..after that straight away go piano class, my eye was so red, and..my mood was %$#@!$@#$*#@..but after awhile, i still can concentrate.
But then after i reach home, kena marah, then cry again.. :p cry baby...

Crying are really tiring...hehe..

Anyway, thank God that i'm still alive..and i've learnt a lesson today, don't speed, don't drive when your hand is injured(especially motor,because you can't even hold the motor well), and be patient...and maybe this is the method to avoid the accident that i saw in my "vision".. I don't even dare to imagine, what if i meet the accident on that street..creepy~~~~~~

hand surgery...

What do i mean for hand surgery??
it's actually a mini, minor, tiny surgery on my hand..is "ON" my hand, not "IN" my hand ya..
well, actually my hand got some death skin, the death skin have been "death" on my hand for quite a number of years. Last few days when i talk with my boss, which is the nurse of the clinic, and i show her my hand, then she say if i want, doctor can remove that away for me.
And so, today there's no patient in the clinic, so doctor do this "surgery" for me.
At first, i'm not scare. But when doctor insert the anesthetic for me, i started to regret. Is pain ok..some more got 3 parts..that's terrible........After that he use a special equipment, which is like a gun and a metal thing. He have to use that to burn my skin and cut out the death skin. OUCH!!!!
although i had been anestheticED..but still can feel some pain. BUT i din't cry. Not that like what my boss say, i'm tough or brave..is..i won't cry infront of outsiders. I still want my pride. :p My face turns pale and my whole body is wet (cause of sweating) after i done the surgery.

Now my left hand got 3 holes..am i "HOLE-ly"???? LOL LOL
doctor say the wound need about 2 weeks to recover. I just can use 1 hand to do things now, is kinda hard and inconvenient. After left hand recover, then i need to do right hand... :s


My hand is swollen..and quite ugly + the ointment so is quite..yer...haha

Thank GOD because he had give me strength and controled my tears..hehe..

Someone who knows.......

When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts... God knows how hard you have tried.

When you've cried so long and your heart is in anguish... God has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by... God is waiting with you.

When you're lonely adn your friends are too busy even for a phone call... God is by your side.

When you think you've tried everything and don't know where to turn... God has a solution.

When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated... God has a solution.

if suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find traces of hope... God has whispered to you.

When things are going well and you have much to be thankful for... God has blessed you.

When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe... God has smiled upon you.

When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow... God has opened your eyes and called you by name.

Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are facing... God knows.

-by Let's "teh-tarik"-

The time has come???

nightmare!!!nightmare!!!nightmare!!!!!!!
I've got some nightmare few days before SPM result announce..what did i dreamt of??
I dreamt that i failed my BC paper..and that crazy teacher!!! That was a scarrrrryyyy nightmare!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, actually i got insomnia..i can lie down on the bed for 3-4 hours,but can't sleep at all. And those stupid nightmare kacau me till....i've not enough sleep..aiks!!!!

HAHAHAHA..back to the topic...hehe..
Today is the DAY!!! A day that SPM candidate looking forward??
hmm..i'm a lazy student. My result always....average..sometimes fail..sometimes pass..sometimes teacher add some pity marks for me, so that i can pass.. :p

Frankly, i think maybe is God touch me or......i also don't know...
i suddenly feel like wanna study just few months before SPM..
I really do my revision seriously.. (and collect tips ^^)
I never go for tuition class, because i think that is not necessary for me to tuition..not that i'm clever enough, is that, i think that tuition doesn't help me much..i hate homework..if tuition..means i need to do schoolwork + tuition work..faint..i really lazy to do that!!!!!

Today is the day..i'm actually nervous(chilllllll)..this morning i dare not go to school to get my result..but still need to get that..oh ya, just for information..my school is actually a gangster + kampung + lousy student school. So, i met all my friend in school this morning. When i reached school, they're actually prepare to leave the school(can you imagine how late i reached my school??although my school is just less than 1km away from my house :p) . They said their result not good..some of them get D for BM..some even failed.. :S scary~~~~~~~~~~~

haha..but, before i get my result..my teacher look at me and say..Celine..awak hutang RM85..what!!!!!!! that's PIBG and school tuition fee..ish!!!! makan orang saja..tuition class also always cancel..aiks!!!! but, what can i do?? din't pay means can't get result..When i get my result..i was...AAAHHHH!!!!!! 4 A's and no D,E nor G!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahhhaa

I got 2 A1, 2 A2, 1 B4, 2 C5 and 3 C6..well, this result might be not so good..is just average..or maybe less than average?? But for me is much more than what i expect. I know myself very well..and this is actually out of my limit..hehe..
BUT, we, human just like to compare ourselve to others..some of my friend get straight..some 10 A's, 9A's, 8A's...my result is like crap if i really wanna compare my result with them...but really thank God... He really blessed me...when i got home, i suddenly think back of what had happened on the 1st day of SPM...without God's help, i don't think i can pass my BM paper..

what had actually happened???
to make it short and clear, i just share about the main point.. :p
hmm..1st day of SPM = BM paper = very very very important...
I..lost my wallet and my 4GB pendrive..while exam, we put our bag in 1 classroom. then we're not allow to bring anything other than pencilbox, IC and water into the exam room. and my wallet is actually quite big, so i kept that inside my bag.We'll go back to have our lunch after BM paper 1 and Sejarah paper 1 and continue BM paper 2 in the afternoon. And I found that I've lost my wallet and pendrive..i din't cry, and reported this to my teacher, but i cried when i saw my dad..haha..but my teacher also can't do anything, i know is kinda hard 2 find it back..and i have more important thing to do. I totally cried out LOUD when i reach home and i told my mum i don't want to take BM paper 2..i don't have the mood to do that....and bla bla bla..................i can still remember what my mum told me..she said, this is the satan works, the demon wanna see you die, if you wanna fight back, then you should be strong and do well in your BM!!!!!!!!...............bla bla bla....

and YES!!! i did it..although i din't get A, but i get B for my BM paper..
Praise God!!!He is AWESOME!!!!!!!

too crazy??

I plan to go to a place, which is 25 minutes away from my house..for??hmm..actually, i also don't know. :p
That's is actually a cafe, which is located in a kinda kampung place. I knew this place from newspaper..last year..hehe..i always wanna go there, but no chance. Because is quite far from my house. My place here is some sort "luar bandar". So, if wanna go there, i have to pass by town, go through some round about and traffic lights.Hmm..i also don't know what's wrong with me. maybe too wu liao? I drive there alone (by motor)..when i reach there..it's CLOSED!!!!gosh~~
what's next?? I don't feel like going home, so i decided to go around muar..haha..waste petrol only nia..
I from this corner, drive till the other corner..and like pass by all the cafe in muar. And the weather is EXTREMELY hot!!!!!!! well, i know i'm crazy..and finally, i stop at a cafe..that cafe is..er..."For U"..
The environment is quite nice, quite comfortable..but.....the food.............not nice....
I ordered ice chocolate and chicken chop...
the ice chocolate..totally not the right taste. It doesn't taste like chocolate, but jelly..ish!!!(i wan chocolate) and the chicken chop..so oily..all those cost me 15bucks!!! (aiks!!!i should stop at secret recipe and have my cheezzzzeee cake)


look at the colour of the ice chocolate..not chocolate enough.. :(


the chicken chop..

haiz..i really don't know why i doing all these..

Enjoying single life... :D

hmm..i'm currently enjoying single life..not means that i don't want to marry, is i'm not ready to start a love offair yet..
I was once "aspire" after love offair, but if really wanna start a relationship, i'll find someone that same interest, same passion, same religion with me. :p
maybe i have seen so many example of my friends,this cause that i won't fall in love with guy easily. Some of the simple minded girl, so eazy to kena "trap" 1 flower, 1 chocolate, 1 teddy bear then follow that guy already.sigh......

BUT..some of the relationship problem is irritating and annoying me recently..AIKZZZ!!!!!
those elder people..too boring? too anxious?
CAN'T GIRL AND GUY BE FRIEND???? just FRIEND!!!!!!
A girl too close with a guy is because they're friend. If all the girl close with guys then is couple, what will this world become???
so, pleeeeeasssssssssssseeeee lah..i treat all my guys friend as brother..best friend..good friend..
really can't stand it..because of those elder people, i got abit phobia when i talking, sms-ing or msn-ing with that person.IIISSSHHHH!!!!!!
I don't want these kinda misunderstand affect our friendship. But, people just like to gossip..haizzz...

and hoh..and hoh...
i just can't understand..why some of the guy could say "if you don't mind, you can try me lah" so easily..why can't they take love offair seriously??
Does they like the girl just because of their look??
just some nice phase..EXAMPLE..you very beautiful..do you have bf?? why don't have?? what about try me??......bla bla bla..then wanna start a relationship with that person??? GOSH!!! what the.......

ok..as conclusion..i'm really enjoy single life now..i'm free like a bird now..i'll learn how to love God more 1st, before i learn how to love people. because, once you love God, automatically, you'll love people.. rite??? ^^

sigh.......

haiz...today i meet my friend in her dad's coffee shop..
what i can say is..haiz...
She and I are best friend..or i should say WERE best friend since form 1..we were in the same cls from form 1 till 3. but form 4 onwards we were seperated into different classes..after that i found a gap between us..but still ok..

I received a gossip msg from my friend on the last day of SPM..SHE IS PREGNANT!?!?!?!!!!! really feel pity about her..17 years old wanna be mother?? we're still underage ok..or..still a kids?? But i know i cant say much, since she choosen this..i just hope that she will be happy.

BUT..BUT..BUT......
When i met her just now. She is telling me that she din't stay with her husband now. And her husband is currently.....erm....sit at home everyday..other than this..gamble..aiks!!! what a rot..lousy guy!!!
She told me that she was regreted..but, she knows this guy behavior since the day they start their relationship. As her friend, i feel heartache. As a girl, i feel ashamed. We always have the chance to choose what is right and what is wrong. Since she knows this isn't a right path, yet she still continue this way. So, i was actually speechless.haizzzzzz..........just hope that she will be strong...

i'm trying to do something DIFFERENT!!!

I felt bored of my honeymoon life since after SPM..
I was once awhile looking forward this kind of HONEYMOON life..BUT, i get fed up of this life soon. I joined ESP camp, after camp i went to KL..shop!!shop!!shop!!!! then, YMI 1..3 week of challenging life right there, but then it seems nothing different after YMI 1..everyday is the same..eat..sleep..on9..work..eat..sleep..on9..work..and then, i received a sms from ps.jit..I was informed that there's YMI 2 in tapah. The 1st thing that came to my mind when i received this msg is..neh, I think I cant join this mission trip. Because I need to work..work..work..although is twice in a week and 1 1/2 hour per day.

So, I just ignore that msg and continue my stupid life. After 1 week, ps.jit called me, he said if i cant join YMI 2, he encourage me to join MMYPG in alor setar. OK, here comes the war...I quarrel and argue with my mum. I really feel bored, fed up, tired and sicked of my life..I cried a few hours after the war..i felt totally burst out!!! I'M TOOOOOO BOOOOOREDDDDDDDD!!!!!

And lots of things happen together in that 2 weeks..I found s'pore NAFA web, i applied it..go back 2 my school, verify those document..sent it..bla bla bla..and i confirm can join YMI 2..and told to go s'pore before the entrolment closing date....ton of things happen together..the only thing i can do is..CHOOSE!!!
I've choosen mission. I hope that it's the right path of choosing YMI, but not s'pore. :D

Today is the 5th day coming back from YMI 2..my leg is full of insects "LOVE BITES" and blue blacks...is itchy and pain!!!(this is not the main topic)
erkm..(clear throat)..
In YMI 2, i shared my stupid life with a christian bro, he ask me to do something that challenge myself. I been thinking..something that challenging me?? what can i do??
last night my mum took up my PRECIOUS guitar..it been sleeping beside me for about 3 months, and I never touch it for about 2 month.. :p
so I decided to TOUCH it again. actually, there're some people that inspire me, gideon, thank you, because you been playing the BASS everyday in tapah. and zy, thank you for sending me Sungha Jung's video. :)

hmm..so, now i'm learning guitar and bass. My fingers are pain and numb now. But I hope that i wont give up learning them. And now i actually can play Heart Of Worship in guitar and Tell The world in bass!!!!!yuhoo~~~~~~

YMI 2!!!

My blog is alive AGAIN!!!haha..

1st..thank God for giving me this opportunity to join YMI 2..as everyone knows, my parents does not allow me to join YMI 2..because i need to work..and bla bla bla..

BUT, that night after i argue with my mum, i read a book "touching the heart of god". The 1st topic is prayer..Things will be different because I pray..INDEED!!!

Well, I get to you guys well in YMI 2..
i learnt that team work is really really important.I'll die at there without you all.Because the DOGS itself is killing me!!!!
Is good to do the paku-ing with 1 group of people..haha..really miss it..although is very tired and hot.
hmm..i learnt alot in tapah..paku, cement, pick the mushroom, dig and find for sweet potatoes..etc..it's a good experience that i will not do in my comfort zone.

Is good to know you all!!! i can feel the Care and Love from you guys. Thanks for protecting me from the Dogs..especially Paulus..thx bro..:p

Justin, you're really surprising me, except my dad, you're the 2nd MAN that i meet who can cook. And i din't know that, you can be so lame~~~~~~

oh ya, the water fall..
the path to the water fall is tough..but the water fall is very nice..i think i wont reach there without you guys..hehe..
it's like the path to Heaven. It's not easy to follow the foot step of Jesus, BUT, with the strength of God, we will made it!!!!!